A part of me can fall back into being attracted into the whole lifestyle. My husband and I can laugh and joke about it because we’ve experienced so much of it. I love him in a way too because that I can do that. If I just had a square dude, how would I sit and share? For me , I cant go through the pictures from this time with people who have never been in the life. Its something people don’t understand. My husband and I can look at them and understand. I cant even explain it to others.