Going into a program was the best thing I could have done. I still carry the love and care the program with me. It taught me that what happened to me wasn\u2019t my fault and that I was just a victim. It gave me a place where I could feel safe. It helped me to learn about myself and to love myself. The counselors there really worked with me and they used to tell me all of the time that I am worth it. Nobody had every told me that I was worth anything. After I finished that program, I went on to another woman\u2019s facility and got a job working with kids. During this time, somebody told me to go into Mass rehab and that they would help me go to school. Now I\u2019m fifty-five years old and graduated. I\u2019ve graduated rehabilitation programs and college with an associate\u2019s degree. And I\u2019m not going to stop there. <\/p>\n
I love the work that I do today. I work in a recovery facility and I get to help so many people just like me. I still feel broken but I also know that as long as I do the right thing, that the right things will happen. I feel that god is using me and that I still have a long way to go. I\u2019m here to tell whoever is out there that they don\u2019t have to go as far as I went or as deep. They can stop now, because there are people out there who care. There are people out there that love you. There\u2019s help available whether it\u2019s at your doctor\u2019s office or your church. You just have to believe in yourself. We don\u2019t have to continue stepping into that same hole. We have to change so that the younger generation can see that there is a way out and that things do get better. That life is worth living.<\/p>\n
Sometimes you have to remove yourself totally from everything that you care about in order to save yourself. I thank god for where I am today. I have a long way to go and I have a lot of life to live. It is doable and I believe in myself today. I\u2019m grateful. I\u2019m very, very grateful for the people in my life. I do a lot of work in the community and I love the community. Every time I walk out my door, I see me. I see me. I see me through the person lying on the park bench with no place to go. I see me in the prostitute jumping in and out of cars. I see me in that drug addict looking for that next fix. I see me. Been there, done that.<\/p>\n
By the grace of god, I don\u2019t have to do it anymore. Today I just want to grow flowers. Thank you. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Going into a program was the best thing I could have done. I still carry the love and care the program with me. It taught me that what happened to me wasn\u2019t my fault and that I was just a … Continue reading